Who am I?

 I believe that people are not born evil. I believe that people are never wholly evil either- every person, even the most despicable seeming, have some form of good in them - yet I, at best, struggle to find it in myself (or so I'm told. My personal feeling is that I think way to much of myself.)

I do not believe there is a such a thing as an objective morality- yet I have my own moral code that I try to keep to (not that I always succeed),  and just like everybody else, will tend to judge others on .

I was born and raised as an Orthodox Jew, and though I may appear as such still (going through the motions for the benefit of others), I am in reality just about completely irreligious - yet I wish I was religious (or at least at a point that I could consider myself as being religious).

While growing up I thought I was a fairly intelligent person, and people around me nowadays seem to think so, but recent experiences have indicated to me otherwise.

I try to be as kind a person as I can be, but I have in the past hurt those I love terribly, and I am terrified that I might do so again, but at the same time believe I won't, believe I have changed, have gained self-control.

So who am I? I am a mixture of shades of grey, like everyone else I suppose...I dunno.

Why am I writing this? I have long lurked around and read (and occasionally commented under  anonymous alias') the blogosphere, and in particular the Jewish blogosphere. I decided I wanted to take a stab at blogging myself.

I have no particular goal in mind with this, and no where in particular I intend to head (in a literary sense) while writing this blog. I don't know if this will be my only post, if I will stop blogging after a month, or if I will end up blogging for the rest of my life.

I guess this blog, however long it lasts, is purely a form of self expression -  a more practical alternative to shouting in the street.